These Hateful Hands and its Hateful Heart
A galaxy of thoughts
Rushing through my head
As my trembling hands
Sought what was ahead
It was always right there
So close yet so Far
That impossible motion
To change My into Our
Like two cars colliding
Our threads of fate entwined
The beautiful doves meeting
The stars had aligned
A flower unfurling
Its petals One by One
You showed me the world
Then it came all undone
You stole my shoelaces
Do you know how I felt?
You traveled farther ahead
Leaving me here to melt
I melted, I melted
From
The pressure
The heartache
The expectations
The dream once deferred
What is my life?!
The pendulum had suspended
Exiting my being
My heartbeat now broken
I find myself fleeing
Fleeing from
The trouble
The corruption
My heart’s double
…
You call me a coward
What else am I to do?
…
I stare down
At my hands
These hateful hands
The ones that held yours
The ones that sought you
The ones that gave up
The ones that knew
Knew my true heart
Knew my soul’s crying
Knew my refusal
To keep on My trying
These hateful hands
This hateful heart
My body is a puppet
Bending apart
The only ones truthful
Are my hands and its heart
My eyes refuse to stare
My legs do not budge
My mouth does not speak
My brain still holds a grudge
His leaving silhouette
His back that’s still Proud
My hands stretch out towards him
Is my racing heart allowed?
The marionette that I am
I just watch him go
The pain is so cutting
So agonizing and slow
My body convulses
As my sobs overtake me
The only truthful part of my body
Still stretching
Why do they still move?
Why have we grown apart?
These hateful hands
And its hateful heart